School Days – Endings = reminiscing.

This is sort of like… a semi-personal entry, but somewhat of a review as well, I guess. Since I won’t consider this blog a full-fledged anime blog, anyway, it really shouldn’t matter. I guess it’s sort of appropriate to be typing an entry on it since the anime TV series is going to be airing in July.

So, I was talking about the bad endings for School Days with Mikey after him pestering me to cosplay as Kotonoha. He told me some of the endings that he liked, and vice versa. Some of the endings he referred to, that I would only know, I have never gotten myself. He also mentioned a detail about a bridge from the ending I DID get, and I didn’t remember it clearly having a bridge. From that, it sparked the curiosity to see if the endings were posted on YouTube… which I wasn’t sure would’ve been, due to how explicit they were. To my surprise, they were on YouTube– who would’ve thought.

Anyways, here’s the ending that I got.

鮮血の結末 Part 1

鮮血の結末 Part 2

Wikipedia desc. : Sekai and Makoto are in love. Kotonoha overhears Makoto and Sekai loudly making love to each other, which in turn emotionally destroys her. The next day as they leave the train station where the three always take, they meet Kotonoha on an overpass beside the station. There is an awkward moment as Sekai lets go of Makoto’s arm, greeting her. Kotonoha says a few words, before revealing the saw hidden behind her school bag and swipes it beside Sekai’s neck. After a few seconds of realizing what had just happened, Sekai suddenly bleeds like a spray and collapses in a pool of blood, with Kotonoha laughing hysterically, her eyes revealing that she has completely broken down.

By far, this is probably the most famous ending. I don’t blame it.

It’s these sort of games that frustrate me the most, and yet I enjoy them over the other light-hearted galge I’ve played over the years. Both School Days and KGNE… It’s always the girls I go after like Sekai and Mitsuki that frustrate me the most, then I ultimately end up hurting the girl my character initially fell in love with in the beginning of the game. Then, after it all ends, I then realized that I liked the girl I ended up hurting more than the one I went after. Is it guilt? I don’t know, because the feelings normally stay strong, even past the ending.

But though I like Kotonoha, it seems that all the endings where SHE is hurt, is the most beautiful. Something about her sorrow, pain, and suffering is just beautiful to watch, as sadistic as it sounds.

My favorite ending, 永遠に.

Wikipedia Desc. : Sekai and Makoto are in love and decide to confront Kotonoha and tell her about it. Kotonoha handles it very badly, even begging Makoto to “Please Love me. I beg you.”Afterwards she quietly accepts. As Sekai and Makoto leave the apartment, Kotonoha’s phone falls and shatters on the floor. They then witness Kotonoha jumping off the ledge of the apartment, landing head first on the pavement. The epilogue shows Makoto in front of Kotonoha’s grave: he broke up with Sekai, finished high school and is now working with his mom. He has never had a girlfriend since.

You know, I’m not exactly sure how I can describe the reason why this is my favorite ending. Out of all the 3 bad endings, it’s this one that left the strongest emotional impression on me. The pause before Kotonoha’s head hitting the pavement, and her expression, just leaves me speechless. To me, it wasn’t so much as sad, as it was beautiful.

Last, but not least… Mikey’s ending. It was also a very sad one, and it’s your character that dies. I’m not going to post the videos, but I’ll at least put up the links. It’s divided into 3 parts on YouTube.

我が子へ Part 1-3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gzxtC_ggQg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O21a9aw8k-U

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FrlMaU-2xLE

It’s these sort of games… that are best when they end in disaster.

Though I cannot directly relate, they remind me of what had happened to me in high school. I had a crush on a boy, and gave up on him because I saw no chance of us getting together. I became friends with him and his other friend, let my feelings pass, and I fell in love with his friend instead. I went out with his friend, and our relationship ended up in abuse, disaster, and overall tragedy, ironically.. leaving him for the person I initially was in love with.

That chapter in my life, as vague as I had typed it… will always be crystal clear to me. I’ll always remember it, even though it doesn’t hurt me now. It’s a memory.

Anyways… just 4 more days until Aniki returns from Boston. I’d went to my bathroom to wash my hands and face, only to see that my eyes were red and puffy from crying. I tried to keep my spirits up and I tried to do things to keep my mind off it… but I really do miss him. That feeling when you’re sad– the back of your neck becomes tense, there’s this deep pressure in your chest, and it becomes difficult to breathe from time to time… This feeling is becoming harder and harder to ignore.

God damn it, I miss him so much…

Talking to Mikey always makes me feel better, though… Always. Despite the fact that he has feelings for me, he always makes me feel comfortable and finds a way to cheer me up. I don’t know why talking to him always makes me so happy. A lot of people say I’m reserved… and to some extent, it’s true. I really don’t like talking about my problems, all the time. I don’t like talking about them, completely, when I do, too. My boyfriend shows signs of him feeling me being reserved… Mikey says I’m reserved, even Andrew says I’m reserved. I’m already aware that I don’t talk to Brandon about my feelings, either.

The words “I love you”… I take them very seriously, if said by the right person. I normally share these words exclusively to my Aniki, but there are times when I want to say it to Mikey, but not in the same context– like how some guys sort of hug their friends and say “Ah, I love ya man!” only more sentimental. I can’t exactly do that, since I’m a girl. I know it’ll be interpretted the wrong way, and I know it hurts him… A lot of things I say hurt him, it seems. I try so hard not to, and yet I do… Out of all the people other than my boyfriend who have confessed to me, it’s Mikey’s whose feelings are most mutual with mine, only… I value our friendship, and I can only see him as my close friend and no more. I’m already in love with my Aniki, and it will stay that way. It’s the feeling that I’m hurting my friend that frustrates me the most. Mikey frustrates me.

… like Sekai, and Mitsuki.